theoryofgravity:
I know standing out isn’t always easy. Half my life is spent listening to people go WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT and IT LOOKS LIKE AN ALIEN.
People are rude sometimes, aren’t they? They think I’m strange because they’ve never seen anything that looks like me. But even if I’m unusual, I still exist. And I don’t deserve to be singled out like a giant freak just because I’m a little different. Or a lot different.
The same is true for you, friend. You don’t deserve to be harassed or humiliated for looking or acting or moving differently. You can tell those people, “Hey, shut up,” or “Damn, you guys are jerks,” or you can say nothing, or you can just walk away. But no matter your reaction, always remember that you didn’t deserve it. There’s nothing about how you look that gives anyone the right to harass you. No exceptions.
Love, Your Beluga Best Friend
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Special Daughter
December 8th 2011
Dear World,
Tonight I was presented with a gift that will forever mean the world to me. A framed picture of my first shirt,hat and foot prints with a necklace stating “special daughter”.
I am forever grateful for that picture from my mother,even if she and I have changed intensely over the years. In all honesty,my mother and I will never see eye to eye and my life will forever be a struggle with her due to deep rooted illness,but one thing I am trying to rediscover is that she has had a hard life,but within in that gave me mine. May not understand why she does the things she does,the cruel things that come from a place of pain,but I am truly appreciative that she loved me enough to have me and let my grandparents provide such strong roles in my life.
As cliche as the term special daughter is,it really opens something up for me. I am more than a daughter to her, Over the years we have been more like sisters,and now I am more like a parent. I’ve held so much resentment in my heart from this. Never truly having that bond that most do,or at least state they do has scared me more than I had ever realized until recently. On top of resentment,have felt guilt for moving and having to stop taking care of her and trying to fight her battles.
Right now I am trying to realize she is only human and a sick one at that. I mean no ill will by saying that,but I’m trying to be honest as the year ends, with a fresh start I hope to bring that special daughter feel in every part of my life.
So here I am,Amber Gracena Curtis,a special daughter,partner, mother,caregiver,and friend. One who was born almost twenty-five years ago into a family true darkness and light. Who strives to let the light shine and forgive the dark this season and in years to come. Above all things,who is a work in progress. So know when I am less than gentle and positive,I am hurting but still that special person who had grown to love those of you who are close and others as fellow beautiful beings. I thank the ultimate power in the world and within me that you are in my life,if you choose to read this.
Yours Truly,
A Special Daughter
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